Hello, everyone. I know that I haven't posted in over a month, and I'm very sorry about that. My life has NOT gotten any less complicated, even though it happens to be summer.
Actually, things have gotten a bit harder.
There's a particular topic about which I wish to rant.
My boyfriend doesn't get to sleep over my house anymore [not that we slept in the same room or anything]. The reason for this was a very small hickey. It was located on my chest, but above the shirt line of my low-cut tops. My mother got very angry when she saw this, and tried to take him away from me completely, but I talked her into it, very simply because if I couldn't see him, I would become a VERY depressed person.
Okay, so there's the back story. What I would like to rant about is the expectations of adults on teenagers, and the hypocritical nature of the judgements they make on us.
My mother calls me a mature, responsible young person. On the other hand, she now won't let me and my boyfriend alone for more than five minutes. Apparently, I'm not responsible enough to know my boundaries and NOT have sex.
May i proclaim to all the people with access to a computer: I AM A VIRGIN AND I PLAN TO STAY THAT WAY UNTIL I AM OVER 17 YEARS OF AGE.
No sex whatsoever until then.
I understand where my mom is coming from and all, I mean my boyfriend and I have been together over a year now, but I think she never really thought about what went on behind closed doors. Which was and still is.............................. NOTHING. The most we've done is made out rather passionately, and it has stayed at that. Nothing more than that.
This is where the hypocrisy comes in. My mother took some preconceived notions about teenagers and their flimsy, hormone-crazed flings and applied it to myself and my boyfriend, which was the WRONG thing to do. We aren't like other couples. He respects my boundaries completely, and I do the same for him. We have agreed no sex until I'm over 17, and we plan to keep it that way. I'm not stupid; I would NEVER give up my virginity at the age I am currently. Personally, I think it is WAY too young. I don't understand why many people I know have chosen to give themselves away to the first boy who says "I love you" to them.
I am not like that.
I put my boyfriend to the test when it comes to loving me. Fate has done the same, and I can honestly say that I know and am 100% sure that he does love me. And I still wouldn't give myself over to him. And it's not because I do not trust him, and it's not because I do not love him. Here's the reason why I won't: I don't want my first time to be some quick fumblings and gropings in the backseat of a car or quickly and quietly in my mother's basement. I honestly think anyone who chooses to cheapen something so valuable in that way IS too young to be trusted.
But I'm not heard and I'm not understood.
Also, my boyfriend isn't either. As soon as this hickey business came about, my aunt was very disappointed in him, and I cannot seem to understand WHY she chooses to feel that way about him and not the same towards me. It is MY body; and it was a mutual agreement that he could leave a mark there. Honestly, it was more of a game. This is how I actually GOT the hickey in question.
Story.....
....We were down the basement and we got into one of our famous tickle-fights.
I knocked him down to the ground and he started tickling me, and to stop him, I threatened to bite him. He didn't believe that I would do it, but apparently I was dead-set on him not tickling me, so I bit down hard on his upper arm. It left a bruise of sorts. I felt bad, and so I told him to bite me so that we would be even. He didn't want to, so I told him to leave a mark, but not somewhere immediately visible so my family wouldn't get the wrong idea. So since I was wearing one of my lower-cut shirts, he pulled it down about an inch and started biting.
See? It wasn't a love bite given in the heat of the moment during some wild sex; it was payback for what happened in the tickle fight.
Honestly, some people really jump to conclusions.
If only I could have explained....
Oh, and another thing. I don't understand these stupid, naive, ignorant teenage girls who have unprotected sex and then get pregnant or contract and STD. YOU WHORES GIVE BAD NAMES TO US RESPONSIBLE YOUNG PEOPLE WHO KNOW HOW TO CONTROL THEIR DESIRES AND KEEP OUT GOD DAMN LEGS CLOSED!!!
Thank you and goodnight.
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